I rather be surrounded by my loving family,

than popular people who hate me.

I rather be surrounded by popular people who hate me,

than friends who secretly dislike me.

I rather be surrounded by friends who secretly dislike me,

than be alone.

I rather be alone,

than being with someone and think I’m the only one.

I rather be the only,

than no one.

I rather I have no number,

than you send me a wrong text.

I rather I have no phone,

than I call and see waiting.

I rather I didn’t join Facebook

than write “I love you” on your wall.

I rather not go through this today,

than talk to you at all.

I rather I be heartless,

than to be in love with you now.

I rather me, than you, so go along.

Why did you bring me here?
The innermost parts of my being cry.
Like raging floods, the bitterness wells up inside.
Drowning? No. Paining? Yes!
Why drown in others' sorrows?
Why cry because you're present but forgotten?
My mind paints a still life of illusions
My heart thumps like drums at Independence time
Worried? No. Crazy..........?
Still, still, time hold still!
Let me shake you until rainbows change to pregnant clouds
Let me flip you so that never-ending mountains shrink
'til beggars stand and preach high words to lofty minds
And from the earth the spilled blood grabs the feet of two-faced men
'til mothers stop rocking cradles to calm screams
but look, ask why I try to stop the world
For when the baby stretched, his hands did break the crib
And when you rocked, my screams grew louder.
So pick me up before I waste away
Do not leave me here!

My love for you is as cool as the ocean
As we walked through the waves with love and devotion
It’s your personality that shines to me

Maybe a little romance is needed
Lightening our days in all this grey
To place a smile on our faces

My eyes are so red,
They burn as I stare at this page,
Confused, so out of it in a daze.
I can't seem to focus.